Finding the Manchu, Part 1: Through the Jade Buffet

Swan Song

As soon as I turn my phone on, the message appears out of nowhere on my phone:

“Where are you, Garlic Head?”

Like a stalker, Policewoman Qu seems to be in step with my every move.  It’s as if she has a microchip built into her brain that alerts her as to when I will turn my phone on and off.  Luckily, I anticipated her supernatural abilities and only turned my phone on about an hour before leaving for Xiu Yan Manchu Autonomous County.  Surely, she cannot have enough time to come and meet me before I depart Dandong.  Surely, I can escape unscathed.  I answer her phone with a message of my own.

“I’m sorry.  I’ll be leaving from the bus station for Xiu Yan soon.  Thanks for a wonderful time in Dandong!”  There, that should do it.  She should get the message.

Ring! Ring! Ring!  It’s her!  She’s calling me here, in the bus station.  I pick up?

“Policewoman Qu?”  I ask.

“Garlic Head!  You’re in the bus station!  I work right near there.  I’ll be over in a few minutes to see you off.”  Shit.  She’s coming to the station.  If I know Chinese people, she’ll be bringing a garbage sac full of fruit and snacks to weigh me down.  It always happens when Chinese “see you off” at the station.  It’s impossible to escape without extra snacks.  I sit down in the station and wait for her to come.  A few minutes later, the phone rings again.  She is outside the station in her car.

Luckily, Mrs. Qu is fully decked out in her policewoman gear, so I am certain she won’t try any funny business with me.  She opens the door from the inside of the car and puts her hazard lights on, peeking over the edge of her Cool Hand Luke sunglasses.  I get into the car.  She purses her lips.  Was I wrong?  Is this the moment?  Is she going to kiss me?

“You didn’t call me this morning….” she says, her voice trailing off.

“I wanted to get my thoughts together…some things I had to do before going to Xiu Yan,” I glance to the side, in the back of the car.  Sure enough, there’s a large bag filled with snacks and drinks. 

“Oh…ok…well, anyway, I remembered you told me you like blueberries, so I got you this….” she swivels in her seat and grabs the plastic bag.  Inside there is a blueberry fruit juice drink, as well as two gigantic apples, a package of Harbin sausages, and 3 bags of MSG potato chips.  She hefts it into my lap, directly onto my testicles.  I feel myself sink into the passenger seat, as if we’re about to go on a road trip.

“Well…I guess this is it…”  I look at my watch.  The bus will be arriving soon, and I don’t want to miss this chance to leave.

“Alright, Garlic Head…well…don’t let me down about Sweet Potato.  We need to find a match for her!”  She smiles and leans over for a friendly embrace.  I lift the bag off of my lap and rise out of the car seat, swivel around, close the door, and I’m off:  through the entrance of the bus station, one step closer to Xiu Yan.

City of Jade, City of Manchu

The largest Buddha jade statue in the world is in Anshan City, Liaoning Province.  It stands 6.1 meters high and weighs approximately 260 tons.  It’s made of Xiuyan Jade.  The reason for its name is is due to the fact that the jade comes directly from jade deposits near Xiuyan County in Liaoning Province.  Xiuyan is one of the major jade depositories in China, the other being in Hetian, Xinjiang (in China’s Northwestern corner).  There are also sufficient jade deposits near Yunnan and Myannmar.  According to an informal survey (conducted by yours truly) of  local jade salesmen in one of Xiuyan City’s plethora of jade markets, approximately 60 percent of the population in Xiuyan is employed through the sale or distribution of jade products.

My purpose for coming to Xiuyan, however, has absolutely nothing to do with jade.  It’s not that I don’t like jade.  I find it attractive and shiny, sometimes a bit gaudy if it’s the wrong shade.  Still, I’m not a jade hunter in any sense.

Coming to this city was not an aribtrary stopover.  I DO have a mission for Xiuyan.  The first time I looked at a map of Liaoning on the train, something special caught my eye with regards to Xiuyan.  Instead of the map reading “Xiuyan City,” the Chinese on the map translated to “Xiuyan Manchu Ethnic Autonomous Region.”  Manchu.  Ethnic.  Autonomous. 

The Manchu intrigue me.  Outnumbered by a ratio of 350:1 at the beginning of the Qing Dynasty (1644), this minority somehow managed to occupy the emperor’s throne for a period of time eclipsing my own country’s entire post-independence history.  Granted, the Manchu were not without their own stability problems and spent a good deal of time “harmonizing” the country during their reign by putting down major uprisings in Xinjiang and Tibet, as well as the Taiping RebellionW where a peasant uprising led by the self-proclaimed brother of Jesus Christ, Hong Xiuquan, sucessfully occupied Nanjing and much of Southern China for 11 years.  Many speculate that it was this particular uprising, in addition to an increase of greed, corruption, ennui, and arrogance that led to the Manchu’s eventual downfall at the beginning of the 20th century. Additionally, they were up against an alliance of Western and Japanese powers whose  modernized military easily overmatched what China had to counter at the time.  Whatever the reason for the Manchu’s fall from grace, the dynasty certainly reached high points of prestige especially under the rule of the scholarly Emperor Kangxi for 61 years, starting when he turned 27 years old in the year 1661.   The Manchu owed much of their success and extended reign to the fact that the system of government that they instilled left much of the previous Ming government intact, choosing in many instances only to replace the higher offices with Manchu officials.  It may largely be a result of this system of continued Ming feudalization that many Han Chinese refer to the modern Manchu as having “no culture” of their own.  In a sense, their reverence, respect, and continuation of Han feudal customs made them “more Chinese than Chinese,” as the saying goes according to scholars and layman alike.  They were absorbed into the Han Chinese sponge.  Coming from a country filled where one has to be extremely sensitive to cultural nuances and political correctness, however, I remain skeptical that all vestiges of their culture have been wiped out.  In Beijing, when one views a cultural relic from the Qing Dynasty, it’s apparent to see just how distinct the Manchu managed to remain for such a long time when one looks at the clear and obvious evidence of an individualized system of writing.

Language.  The Manchu had their own language.  Language is the essence of culture, the bone marrow, the nuts and bolts.  I believe that everything about culture boils down to language.  We think and act, and more importantly, see the world according to our own language.  I know this from the own fact that I can feel a shift in my thinking, in my world view, sometimes even in my personality, when I use Chinese to express myself in writing or speaking.  I become a different self.  I don’t lose my core being, but the way I structure my thoughts certainly alters.  I unlock a door to a part of my brain I previously never knew existed.  So, what about this Manchu language?  It’s apparently dead, or mostly dead.  I have never found anyone still able to speak it or read it.  How does this happen?  The Manchu ruled China until the beginning of the 20th century.  Now I can’t even find one person who can say “hello” in Manchurian.  There must be someone.

I won’t see the Buddha statue on this day.  Melt him down and trade him for a living, breathing, speaking Manchu.  I’m in Xiuyan to bring the dead back to life.

Arrival

“You here to buy jade?”  The pudgy man working at the information booth at the bus station looks at me with an all-knowing grin on his face.  Of course I’m here to buy jade…why else would a white guy be in Xiuyan?  He comes out from behind the booth where he is working.   In front of his working space is an immacuately carved jade sculpture sitting directly in the center of the bus station.  It seems too polished to be here, and probably deserves to be in a hotel lobby or museum somewhere.  I remind myself that I am in Xiuyan, and jade is ubiquitous here.

“I like jade, but I was wondering if you could help me with something else.  You’re Manchu, right?”  I take a guess.  I cannot tell the difference between Manchu and Han Chinese simply by appearance.

“Right.  Most people in this town are,” he answers.

“I was wondering if you can speak Manchurian?”  I decide to go for the gold now.

“Uh…no…I can’t actually,” he seems a bit confused.  When am I going to ask about jade?

“No problem.  Anyway, I was wondering if you could help me out with that.  Maybe you’ve got an idea of where I could find someone who could speak and write Manchurian.”

He looks around and smiles again.  How many people have asked him this question?

“Wait right here,” he says as he turns to go back to his desk.

“Hey Bob (cannot remember his co-worker’s name), do you know anywhere that this guy can find someone who can speak Manchurian?”  While Pudge and Bob take a few seconds to discuss my options, I take a photo of the jade sculpture in the center of the station. 

“Excuse me,” Pudge says, coming over with a slip of paper in his hand.  “You might want to try going to the culture center.  They may have someone there who can speak Manchurian.  That’s all we could think of.  Sorry.”  He shrugs his shoulders.  I ask him if there are any specialties in the town that I should eat for lunch.

“That’s no problem,” he says, patting his stomach.  He seems much more at ease talking about food.  “Try the lamb soup with the flat noodle skin.  See if you like that.”  I thank him for his suggestion and leave the bus station entering the first restaurant that serves the Xiuyan lamb soup specialty.  I slurp up the hearty broth and chew my lamb chunks slowly, planning my next steps toward the dead language.

Jade Buffet

After lunch I check into a cheap hotel around the corner, and I’m once again on my mission.  The help at the fron desk tell me the quickest way to get to the Culture Center.  Apparently, walking there won’t take me too long.  I’m instructed to cut a path through the jade market across the street for a shortcut.  After leaving my culinary relics from Policewoman Qu in my hotel room, I set out for the culture center. 

Before even crossing the street, some jade salesmen sitting in front of my hotel catch my attention.  There are 3 men just sitting on the curb with uncut pieces of jade that they want to sell to passersby.  I chat with them for a few minutes.

“You’re here to buy jade?” the one on the left asks me.  It just doesn’t make sense that I’d come to Xiuyan for any other reason.

“Well, maybe later,” I say.  “I was looking for somebody who could speak Manchurian.  You guys don’t know anyone do you?” 

They look at each other.  One of them takes a drag of his cigarette.  None of them speak Manchurian.  But…they’ve got some fine looking chunks of jade.

The covered market across the street is filled with jade.  There are polished jade sculptures of Buddha, jade necklaces, jade errings, the 12 animals of the Chinese zodiac, little jade feet with jade spiders on them, jade mountains, jade monsters, jade mothers giving birth to jade babies.  Jade, jade, JADE!  Just by being surrounded by all this jade, I start to think that maybe I should buy some of it.  I never had the intention before, but it’s all here.  It’s the same feeling I get when I go to an all-you-can-eat buffet.  I’m in the buffet and there’s all this food, and I’m not even particularly hungry.  Despite the limited confines of my stomach, I pile up my plate like a voracious wolf just out from weeks in the wilderness.  I panic, thinking that at any moment, an army of white-haired retirees will enter the buffet and snatch up all of the food, leaving me with only parsley and carrot sculptures to choose from.  My eyes grow bigger and bigger.  The jade buffet is never-ending.

As I’m reveling in my jade overdose, I notice that there is the light of the exit not far from me.  I need to make my escape and get away from this jade.  I can feel it pulling me in, like the macaroni and cheese at the buffet, it stretches its grip on me and doesn’t want to let go.  I have to go, though.  I have to make it to the culture center.  There’s got to be something else in this town besides non-Manchu-speaking Manchus and a jade buffet.

After exiting the buffet, I come to a relatively empty road.  I don’t know which direction to go, so I decide that instead of walking I’ll take the first taxi that comes my way.  I don’t have to wait long.

Drive to the Center

“Culture Center,” I tell the taxi driver.  He does a double take when he hears where I want to go.

“Ah, the culture center.  I have a cousin who works there.  Whatcha’ going there fah?”  He holds a cigarette in one hand while he drives.

“I want to see if there’s anyone who can speak Manchurian or not,” I say.

“Really?  That’s something else.  Waitaminute.  Let me give my cousin a call.  Maybe he knows someone, ya know?”  He tosses his cigarette out the window and continues to drive while searching for his phone.  He pulls out the phone and dials a number.

“Ya?  Cuz?  Hey, it’s me.  Listen ta’ this?  I got this foreigner who’s researching Manchurian culture and language,” the driver winks at me, “ya…ya…anyway, wasn’t there a guy who could speak Manchurian there?  Ya…ya…I know….it’s something….sho’ is…ok…I’ll tell ‘im.”  He turns the phone off and turns my way.

“Well, sonny, ya’re in luck.  My cuz’ knows a guy.  He says he’s gonna’ give ‘im a holla’ and then see whatcha’ do ‘im fo…sound good?” he asks.  His accent is a little tough for me to decipher, but I can get the general gist.

“Yeah, well, that’s awesome.  Thanks, mister.”

We don’t have much further to drive, and within 4-5 minutes we arrive at the culture center.  We wait outside for the driver’s cousin to arrive.  The driver gets out of his cab, and leans against the car, pulling out another cigarette.  We’re now parked in front of the culture center.  It’s a drab looking, grey building without much character.  If I couldn’t read the Chinese characters for “culture center,” I would never know where I was, instead thinking I had arrived at an a government office in transition, or a closed down library.  I get out of the car and walk over to the driver.  He’s still smiling. 

“Ya beard’s nice.”  He strokes his own hairless chin. 

“Thanks.”  I instinctively stroke my own beard.  Am I really in the right place?  Who’s going to come out of those glas doors at the front of the culture center?  It feels like a dead end spot.  How can there be culture in that building?  I shake my head inside my mind, knowing that looks are often deceiving.  Still, I have my doubts for a split second.

The doubt evaporates suddenly when the doors open.  When He does come out, I know I’ve made the right choice.  Wearing a Hawaiian shirt, and with glowing spirit eyes, the Tan Man pushes the glass doors open and walks over to the taxi driver and myself.  He puts his hand out for me to shake.  I grab it, firmly.  He has a good grip.  Hunter spirit.

“So, you’re here for the Manchu, eh?  Welcome, my boy.  Welcome…”

Walk the Line

“Come here,” the man with the ruffled hair says to me.  He stands underneath a grey stone archway.  It’s begun to rain again.

“Do you want to see a hot North Korean soldier?” he asks me, raising his eyebrows. 

Another temptation.  Here we go.

I look over at Policewoman Qu, and then check my bearings.  There are certainly no North Korean soldiers on the top of this section of the Great Wall, a spic-and-span reconstruction about 15 minutes drive from Dandong city.  Part of the Ming Dynasty Wall actually stood here at one point, but it was destroyed through a combination of erosion, history, ransacking, and war.  After leaving the river where I had my first face-off with North Korea from water, Mrs. Qu picked me up in her car to give me a chance for my first eyeball to eyeball with the country from the safety perch of Dandong’s supermarket version of the Great Wall.  At the top of the wall there is an excellent view of North Korea’s nearby fields and a small village.  I squint my eyes to look, searching for the North Korean supermodel in the distance.

“Come on, fella’.  Just 5 rmb and I’ll show her to you.  She’s really hot.”  The man with the ruffled hair stands next to a pair of binoculars on a tripod. 

Again with the peeping.  I’m such a putz.

I would reject Mr. Binoculars’ temptation, but he is just so pleasant, and I’m still so damned curious.  I want to see the hot North Korean soldier, just to see that she’s real, just to say that I saw her.

“Alright, alright.  Why not?”  I reach in my pocket and pull out 5 rmb of self dignity and hand it over to Mr. Binoculars.

Eat it up, my boy.  Eat it up.

Almost as soon as I look into the lenses and my eyes are focused, I see her.  Mr. Binoculars has had the binoculars focused on her the entire time.  He knows exactly where she is, and exactly what her movements are.  Taking peeping money is what Mr. Binoculars does for a living.  Hot Korean Soldier (HKS) is standing on a kind of a grey precipice of a wall that seems to be part of a small, cement damn.  She looks lonely.  No other soldiers are around her.  Stiff-legged, she marches with a rifle to the end of the precipice, giving me a full view of her straight line.  She could be walking on a metal wire for all I know, her movements are so precise.  The rifle never bobs up and down.  She’s stiff as a board.  I cannot make out any facial expressions, but she does appear to quite cut a nice figure.  HKS is the only North Korean I know at this point.  She’s putting on a show for me, for the world.  She gets to the end of the precipice, turns around, and marches back to the right side of the damn.  She pivots like a screw and begins her march towards the edge of the precipice once more, never once turning to wink at me.  I find myself slightly envious of the emptiness that must be going through her mind while she marches.  Surely, she can’t be contemplating much.  Left, right, left, right, left, right.  The same thing goes through my mind when I swim laps in the pool.  1-1-1-1-1-1-1-1-turn-2-2-2-2-2-2-2-2-2-turn-3-3-3-3-3-3-3-3….

Continuing to look through the binoculars, I scan the horizen and look towards a small North Korean village.  The village itself has a very specific shape, kind of like that of an airplane wing.  All of the houses are squat and grey.  The binoculars are powerful enough that I’m able to look and see some of the life moving around in the village.  Like a scientist peering down on unsuspecting microbes, I look through my God’s glasses at the activity below, analyzing and probing everything I take in.  A sickly looking dog trots by a child sitting on a wall.  Another man works on a house in progress.  I don’t detect any steam coming out of any of the houses’, so there’s no sign that anything is being cooked anywhere.  There’s not much movement in the village, really.  From the top of the Great Wall, things look pretty static at this point.  I give the glasses back to Mr. Binoculars.  Policewoman Qu and I begin our descent.

The second Cruise

After we reach the bottom of the reconstructed Wall, we walk through a small exhibition devoted to Great Wall history, with a focus on the Wall in this area.  At the end of the museum, we have a choice of two return routes back to the parking lot.  One of the routes is built into the cliffs underneath the Great Wall itself.  It follows a narrow pathway up stairs along the cliff face.  The other way to return is via water on small boats with a driver that one can rent.  There is a small stream that laps its way beside the Great Wall lazily, and it is upon this stream that the boats wait, lonely and patiently.  In the middle of the stream is a fence.  On the other side of the fence is North Korea. 

This is the closest I have been to the forbidden country, now only meters away from me.  It’s in this direction that the “One Stop Crossing” is located.  The previous night I did some online research about this section of the Great Wall.  Apparently, in the past, this fence was not totally complete, and one could forge a narrow section of the stream and cross over into North Korea in one giant leap at the gap in the fence.  This “blind spot” at the border has since been mended.  I’m not planning to swim across this creek to attempt to enter North Korea, but I decide that I will pay the small fee to skim the border of the country.  The Sun is shining for once, and the boat drivers are not too pushy.  Policewoman Qu and I enter the boat.

The driver doesn’t sing, and he doesn’t talk much.  I wonder how many times he’s done this ride before.  It just seems like business for him.  Policewoman Qu, on the other hand,  is beaming.  Her face lights up when we get in the boat.  She looks totally different today out of her police uniform.  She doesn’t seem uptight at all.  She is relaxed, and seems far away from married life.  At the same time, however, I have this weird feeling that she…likes me…or feels somewhat attracted to me.  I began to have this feeling at the time of our descent from the top of the Great Wall.  Maybe it’s all in my imagination.  At the same time, I can’t help feeling that she’s trying to seem…young for me.  The feeling is amplified by the way that the driver looks at the two of us as we sit down in the boat next to one another.  Like two lovers on a romantic date, we board his craft along the border.  I don’t pay a lot of attention to the driver’s stare, but I still can’t help noticing what I interpret to be disapproval from him.  It’s not a huge deal to me, but it does nag on my mind a little bit.  It seems like Policewoman Qu needs a release from the daily pressures of police and married life, and I may just be that “release.”  Plus, I’m leaving the next day.  Am I her boy toy?

“This is nice,” she says, sitting next to me while the boat drifts along.  She cocks her head to one side, batting her eyes, throwing her hair back in the gentle breeze.  The mole on her face stands out for a milisecond, and it’s all I see.  I’m embarrassed to say that it is at this moment that I am very clearly aware of our age difference.  I don’t like the fact that I notice her age, but I can’t help it.  She dyes her hair orange and likes to wear tight jeans.  There’s nothing wrong with that, but I feel that she wants to be a high school girl again…or at least single.  Her top is a spaghetti strap black top that shows a little bit more cleavage than I’m comforable with.  I’m sure her husband has absolutely no clue what she is doing today.   I wonder if they even spoke to each other this week.  I suddenly feel trapped and uncomfortable, fearing that Policewoman Qu is going to jump my bones at any minute.  I wish with all of my willpower that the goddamn fence would just disappear and I could seek sanctity from my sqeamishness in th abyss of North Korea’s totalitarianism.  I am ashamed by the slow feeling of repulsion that suddenly begins to grow in my mind, but I cannot help it.  Like a demon baby forming, the legs and arms of the baby have fingers already.  Her body language is definitely saying, “this is a romantic moment for me.”  My imagination tries its hardest to will a North Korean refugee to pop his head out of the reeds to wave at us for help.  I just want some distraction, something to make this awkwardness go away.  The North Korean never materializes, however, and I’m left with the futile feeling of waiting for this boat ride to end.   

Escape

Land.  Now knowing that I am trapped with Policewoman Qu, I have to play into my skills of diversion.  She wants to go rafting with me on some rapids at a touris site not far from the Wall.  The last thing I want to do is be trapped on a boat with Mrs. Qu again.

“Why not just take a drive?”  I say.  She agrees.

“Yeah, the Sun is shining today.  A good day for a drive,” she says.  Driving is a good idea.  She won’t be able to put the moves on me in a car.

After driving for a few minutes, she pulls off on a little side road, and the awkwardness begins to die down.  I feel a little sorry for Mrs. Qu at this point.  It seems like she hasn’t been this happy in a long time.  I keep feeling like there’s so much she wants to tell me.  From time to time she mentions Sweet Potato to me.

“What do you think of her?  She’s a good girl, isn’t she?  You think you’d be interested in her?”  I deflect these questions like a professional tennis player batting tennis balls left and right.  Desperation.  That’s the first word that comes to mind when I think of Policewoman Qu at this moment.  Desperate for one of her relatives to get married.  Desperate for happiness.  Desperate to have a foreign in-law.  Desperate to get away from this police life.  Desperate for someone in her family, anyone, to go abroad.  Desperate for investment in a new life.  Desperate to feel loved…

As we drive, I calm down and don’t feel uncomfortable with her so much anymore as I do sorry for her.  The scenery is actually quite beautiful, with chrysanthemum flowers lining the mountainous roadside, and only one car in front of us.  We drive for more than an hour.  She talks about her family.  Her father was in the military and actually fought against the Americans during the Korean War.

“What would he think about me?”  I ask.

“Oh, he would be fine with it.  He would like you,” she laughs.  She sighs.  Her father passed away years before.

The Proposal

On the way back from the countryside, Policewoman Qu takes me to a restaurant that borders a kind of inlet from the river.  The view is nice, and we get a window table.  The restaurant specializes in seafood, and she makes sure to order a pile of it.  We are the only customers in the restaurant.  Our table is a private one, and every time the staff enters our room, I can feel the same stares of disapproval that I felt from the boat driver next to the Great Wall.

As we wait for our food to arrive, I can feel the wistfulness of a wanton romance returning to our table, channeled through Policewoman Qu’s eyes, language, and body expressions.  After our clams arrive, she hits me with the proposal.

“Garlic Head,” (my ’pet’ name, apparently), “what if…what if I went to the US with YOU?”  she asked me.

I try to play it nonchalant, acting completely innocent and oblivious to what her implications are.

“That’d be a cool idea.  You could come and visit sometime.  I’m living in Beijing, now, you know.  So I don’t know when I’ll be going back to the US.”

She frowns.  “That doesn’t sound like a very nice invitation.  After all the fun we’ve had here, you don’t want me to come back to the US with you?”  This is killing me.

“Well…no…it’s not what I….I mean, you want to visit, right?  That would be great, right?”  Get it together man!  A feeling of absolute horror begins to grip me.  My lip does that quiver thing that happens as a result of anxiety.  I take a sip of water hoping that she doesn’t notice.

“A visit would be nice…” here it comes…”but, what if we were to go into business?  I mean, I’m REALLY good at making dumplings.  We could open up a dumpling shop together.  It wouldn’t matter where.  Maybe New York City?  You could call it whatever you want.  I think it would make a good profit.  It would be really fun.  I’ve always wanted to do something like that…”

I can’t believe this conversation is happening.  I slurp down some clams.  They’re really good.  Too good for me to be dreaming.

“Mrs. Qu….please.  Are you serious?  I mean, I’m sure you’re a good cook, but…you have a good job here as a policewoman.  A good job.  A good life.  And…you’re married.   Would your husband be enthusiastic about you going to America to start a dumpling business with an American guy?  And…what about your son?”  I ask. Please come back to reality.  Please come back to reality.

She slurps down some clams.  Our dish of fried cicada arrives.  I can still make out the antenae and little heads.  When the staff enters the room, we keep silent.

“It’s ok,” she says sweetly, in defeat.  “I just think it would be a good idea.  Just something different.  Anyway…what’s your plan tomorrow?”

Yes.  This is good.  A change of topic, a change of direction.  I pounce on it.  Away from the fairy tale and romantic notions and back to the gritty realities of border life.  I’m sorry, Mrs. Qu.  I cannot go down this road!  You are a lovely lady.  I just cannot take this fairy tale diversion with you.  The next day I am certainly getting away from Dandong and Policewoman Qu.  My plan is to go to Xiu Yan Manchu Minority Autonomous County, and I’m very happy to talk about this plan with Mrs. Qu.  It sets my mind on the immediate future and away from the cloudy distant EverAfterLand.  By this time, the rest of the meal has arrived.  As often happens in China, we’ve ordered too much food, but it’s fine with me.  As long as our lips are munching and our mouths are moving, we are slowly edging the conversation and the mood away from unrequited love and unfulfilled dreams.    The meal is expensive but I pay for it.  It’s the least I can do after dashing Mrs. Qu’s hopes of an escaped life with me.  The Sun sets early in the evening next to Dandong.  I’ll move on in the morning.  The fairy tale sadness tucks itself away with the setting Sun.  I feel a tinge of pity when we leave the restaurant–pity for her discontent and inability to accept the reality of the setting Sun, putting fairy tales to rest.  The next morning will carry me away from the sad violin concerto of Dandong….where it always seems to rain with the lonesome wail of a lost policewoman and a sweet potato rooted in the soil.

Peepshow

In the morning, it’s all about the other side.  I want to see it and touch it. There’s something about not being able to cross the river that makes me all the more curious.  When the Man says, “No,” it’s only human nature to ask, “Why not?”  I feel this “WhyNot” about North Korea, and I’m going to do something about it.  Not even an army of volunteers led by Peng DehuaiW and Sweet Potatoes could stop me.  I’m going on the boat.  I’m going to the river.

Luckily, I don’t have to mess with either Policewoman Qu or Sweet Potato this morning.  The former is at work, and the latter is probably still sleeping in her overalls and high heels.  I have agreed to contact Mrs. Qu after visiting the river, but for now, the morning is for me and the North Koreans.  I won’t go to the country, but I may be able to spit on it if I get close enough.

The Cruise

Raining again.  Appropriate.  Put another drop of water in my way, oh Fate, but You cannot keep me from the river.  Let it rain Sweet Potatoes for all I care.  The Broken Bridge awaits my arrival.  That’s where the boats leave from.

Pwap!

I open my umbrella and walk from my hotel lobby to the Broken Bridge.  There is a dock there where tourists can board a short 45 minute cruise along the river to get a closer view of mysterious North Korea.  I promptly walk up to the ticket booth.

“One please,” a young girl wearing a blue jumper takes my ticket money.  I blink my eyes and she turns into the Spirit of Death, a scythe held in her bony fingers.  From her eyes burst forth flames; their fire burns into my clavicle.  I can feel my muscles melt and turn into jelly.  I blink again.  The girl in the blue jumper holds her hand out and gives me my ticket and I board the boat.

The boat is relatively uncrowded and rocks back and forth as we wait for the journey to begin.  Apparently we’ll just go to the middle of the river, cruise along for some time, and then turn around, returning back to the Broken Bridge.  There is a gift shop where one can purchase North Korean money and snacks, as well as Korean War mermorabilia.  A woman walks through the aisle carrying a bunch of binoculars that one can rent for a small fee. 

“What are these for?” I ask.

“So you can look at North Koreans,” she says.  I fork over some cash and take a pair.  About 80 percent of the passengers do the same.  The man next to me is anxious to look.  He gets up and and gawks at the other side.

After waiting for the boat to fill up, the cruise makes its way through the rain.

Blackbird overhead.  Grey water under the boat.  Three blackbirds.  Rain plipping into the river.  Marbles falling onto a roulette table in a colorless Vegas.  Grey water, grey sky.  Cloud-swirl.  Patch of grey, patch of white.  Cloud hangs down like the roots of a vegetable, reaching its arms down towards the water, towards the land.  Dull green across water.  Moss land.  Land of the dead.  The Land is a Man.  A grey man.  Men grow out of the Moss Land Dead Man.  Grey.  Smoke.  Fishnets.  Dirty, broken down factory.  Zombies.  Arms outstretched, eating the dead.  Stained, white, orange with rust.  Smokestack.  Birds fly over Moss Land Dead Man.  Over the border.  Broken windows in factory.  Brown windows, stained with rust, stained with no keep.  Man on bicycle.  Man fishing.  Faceless man.  Two men walking in river.  Legs like sticks, claw hands.  Crab people.  Zombie Crabs.  Grab fishnet, throw into water.  Stand.  Walk.  No look.  No look!  Shhhhluuup.  Shhhhluuup.  Heads down.  No face.  Faceless men.  Faceless hats.  Silent bicycle, blue coat flapping in wind with speed.  Fppp, fppp, fppp, fppp, fppp.  No face.  No face!  Birds overhead.  Three.  Boat turns.  Wet Earth.  Roulette River.  Moss Land Dead Man.  Zombie Land.  Faceless, grey, faceless, grey, faceless.  No go.  No go! No go!

 

 

 

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